Fear

Expecting perfection is a fool’s game,

Yet nothing less I expect when I hear your name.

Not that you don’t have your flaws,

Just that they were ones I would happily endorse.

Yet today what is this fear that sits tight?

That doesn’t let me stay calm or breathe right?

So many things to say,

That I hold back because you are so far away.

Conversations I want to return to,

Only to know if this is who I am really into!

Maybe they were just words of passing to you,

But love, they shook me, making me question what is true.

The heart fears if it’s too late,

The mind is convinced that it isn’t going to pick that bait.

Amid their arguments,

It is the soul that surrenders and the smile that fades.

Every day I must hold on seems harder than the previous,

The words flowing out of my mouth, more cautious.

It tortures further to know that you are clueless,

That you don’t know my smiles and laughs were hueless.

Darling, how do I tell you?

How much I wanted to run into your arms seeking assurance anew!

To ask what you meant to convey?

To know if this is what life will be if I stay?

Life isn’t easy for you now,

With a changing lifestyle, and negatives you are trying to disallow.

A word of confidence and support from me,

Making a difference in your daily work spree.

Distanced from everything you love and cherish,

I know you are battling with new demons, nightmarish.

I do want to stand by you and will.

Just know for me, time currently stands still.

There’s so much you need to hear,

So much that could make us shed a tear,

Yet, I know I’ll wait, to talk it out and make it okay. Cause with you my heart and soul lie, in this crazy world filled with love gone astray.